i've never been more homesick then now

i hate the weekends. the only thing i like about them is the gathering on sunday nights. i am constantly finding myself in a state of extreme boredom. like watching tv for long hours between rounds of homework. i figure if i were home i could be doing stuff with my friends or else going places because i'd have a car. but that would require money and i have none. i really want to be working on this one project, but i need to get to a store to buy the stuff for it and i have no way to get there. it's all planned out and everything but i don't have any of the supplies. i'm probably gonna have to get it all over winter break and then mail the project home which will add extra cost. i hate not having a car. like a lot. it takes away your life and your ability to truly be independent.

i can only watch friends so many times. i can only play spider solitaire so much. i can only do homework for so long. i can only play the keyboard for oh i dunno - ever! i am so bored i am going insane. i wish classes were in session just so i'd have something to do.

i miss being busy. i miss having a job and having to run lots of errands all the time. i acutally miss having to buy gas - as crazy as that sounds. i do miss it. people tell me about how they stopped at target because they had an hour break between classes and it just makes me so jealous. i can't remember the last time i was at target. i am so sick of sitting in this dorm all the time. i try to do stuff but there isn't really that much to do. anything i really want to do is hindered by my lack of CAR!!! my family tells me they're going to dinnner and the movies - well i'm getting cafeteria food and maybe a dvd on my laptop.

i think i'm having a homesick day.