the dreams i dream for you are bigger than the ones you're clinging to

i need direction, Lord.
i am walking aimlessly into something that is so much bigger than me
bigger than i think i can handle
i know you have a plan, Lord
a perfect plan for me
something i love
i have so many dreams
things i'd like to do,
but they worry me, Lord
they scare me.
i don't know what to do with them
and i fear my inability
my inability to perform up to par
my inability to search out answers
my inability to be brave
sometimes i scare myself Lord
i think that my fears and insecurities will keep me from everything
from achieving my dreams

but are these dreams just dreams?
or are they pointing me in a certain direction?
You know i'm not a risk-taker
i like to take the safe route
stick to the familiar
i would have to step so far out of my comfort zone to pursue these dreams
in a career-wise way
is that what You want?

Lord, you know my heart
there are no desires there that are not from You
You know me better than i know myself
You know what i can and cannot do,
despite what i think i can and cannot do.
give me wisdom, Lord.
give me the ability to see Your will clearly amidst my chaotic mind.
more than anything, i want Your will.
Your dream
Your wish
for my life.
i believe with all my heart that you dreamed a dream for me long ago.
reveal it to me oh Lord.
cuz i'm kind of stressing.
i'm worried and afraid
i just don't know what to do with my life.

give me a sign.
somehow let me know
where i'm supposed to be.
cause i know that i can't find it on my own.
i am too afraid to admit my heart's desires out loud,
to admit that what i want may not be easily attainable.
that i may have to work in a way that i didn't plan on.

Lord, open doors.
close doors.
make it so clear to me that there will be NO denying it.
who knows? maybe Your plan is something i would never have dreamed of!
i believe that it will be great Lord.
because i know that You love me
and right now, that is all i need!